And it was AWESOME!!!
Yesterday, I finally decided that enough was enough, and I went in and had my band deflated to what it was at the time of my first fill.
So, I believe I have only 3.5cc in there right now.
I was so discouraged by being stuck all the time, in pain almost every time I ate, and afraid to eat the foods I know are healthy (and that I actually prefer to eat!).
I had reached a point where I was making myself vomit after at least one meal a day, just to not be in pain. I was never that brand of bulimic before, it sucks that WLS brought me to that point.
I had gotten to the point where I was eating slider foods (not horrible ones MOST of the time, but still) like cereal and such in quantities that were just not good.... and getting VERY tired of beans and legumes.
So, we'll see if I can manage my portions on my own again somewhat. Dr. G didn't have a problem unfilling me this much, as he said that when I was last at this level before I was my most successful post-banding.
I am looking forward to eating regular breakfasts again (EGGGGGS!!@!@!) and not being terrified to eat lean meats and fish and tofu.
Seeing as December, January, and February (thus far) have been a total wash, and I feel physically awful from the high-carb eating, I think that whatever happens now with the looser band is likely to be an improvement.
I think the band will make a great maintenance tool for me, but it's just not doing it for me as a weight loss tool so far. That's OK, I don't suck at taking off the weight .... I just suck at KEEPING it off.
wow i feel exactly the same!
ReplyDeletei just went for an unfill yesterday and im so glad i did
havent tried to eat yet, but im sure it will be alot better than when i was too tight!
good luck!
Good for you. So far, I pretty much have the same opinion of my band. It's going to be a great maintenance tool!
ReplyDeleteI've always wanted to try an egg white omelette are they good? Anyway, good for you, taking control of your band! Being too tight is the worst! I'm finally realizing that I don't need to keep getting filled to keep dropping pounds, I just need to better my habits. They refused a fill for me last time and I freaked until I realized it's better to adjust how I eat than to be too tight.
ReplyDeleteSo glad for you!
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone! Yes, I think I made a good call, though I am going to have to buckle down and start over with logging to stay on track with my portions. That's OK, I'm just so glad I can eat without hurting! :)
ReplyDelete@Caity : Egg white omelettes aren't quite as good as regular ones, but are still pretty darn tasty! I make mine a variety of ways, but usually include some fat free cheese, some sort of chopped meat, whatever veggies happen to be in the fridge leftover. My spouse had made fajitas for himself not long ago, so my omelettes this week have been leftover fajita meat and onions/peppers, fat-free cheddar, and topped with salsa. Yum!
I think you made a good choice to have your band deflated, it sounds like you were headed for big trouble. Hugs and kisses to ya hun.
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by my blog. To answer your question yes I do use Vital wheat gluten. The flour I use is a whole wheat white. Nutritionally the same as whole wheat but lighter.