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Thursday, February 3, 2011

Two months wasted

Yeah, I'm still here.

I just seem to have misplaced my motivation somewhere.

And, I feel sort of lost with my band recently. My stuck episodes have decreased somewhat, but still seem to happen any time I try to eat the foods I'm supposed to be eating (all meats, fish, chicken, tofu, eggs). If I lay down a "layer" of something soft first, then I can sometimes get down those foods, but unfortunately I can also get down as much of ANYTHING as I want to eat.

All this is leading me to make carb-based choices on my foods, and of course eating carbs leads to wanting carbs -- and a lot of 'em. Cereal is my binge food, always has been. I'm not big on sugared cereals, at least. But multiple bowls of Cheerios or Kix? My band says absolutely nothing about me eating that, and the carbs have gotten me into this vicious downward spiral with cereal, cookies (my MIL brought freakin' girl scout cookies when she came to visit!!), birthday cake, bread, rice, etc.

This is my third week in a row to see the scale take a leap upward. I'm back where I was at the beginning of December.

Another fill? What, and guarantee I can't eat any protein except in shake form?

But my quantities of everything else are WAY out of whack. So a fill seems like it would be the right move for that reason.

I've actually still lost more weight BEFORE getting banded than since.

I have no idea what to do, but I can't keep doing what I've been doing, that's for sure. :(


  1. Almost sounds like you are too tight if you can't comfortably eat proteins. It's a fickle little thing, we think tighter is better, but it's the opposite. Because just like you said then you go for easy to eat carbs which don't stick with you like proteins would giving you more satiety. Hope you find the right answer to get things moving in the right direction again!! :)

  2. I agree with CeeJay!! Though I will say that I recently had 1.5cc put in unexpectedly then .5 taken out nearly right away and then .5 taken out a week later - so I ended up up .5cc but with a lot of in and out on the way there. And I ended up - not quite looser - but definitely totally different and much more able to eat things I should than before I the whole fill/unfill thing started. The band is just an odd creater with a mind of its own. I definitely suggest adjusting it one way or the other. Start with a little unfill and see if that helps you get back to being able to eat what you should be eating - if that doesn't work, add it back and maybe it'll end up sitting in a slightly different place that will be just what you need.

    Getting it out there - was the first step. I'm sorry it's hard right now, but I think making a band adjustment is your next move.

    Good luck!

  3. I sooo understand what you are going through. I made a appointment for a fill and wham the band tightend up. You wt loss is increadable, keep it up.

  4. I also think you may be too tight. If you can't eat healthy foods, especially protein, that's a problem. It is not uncommon for people who are too tight to eat in just the way you're describing AND to gain weight (or not lose). What's more, the lack of protein and excess of carbs can cause constant hunger and a lack of satiety, despite an excess of calories.

    But don't fret about "losing" two months! This is a learning process and the information you learn now will help you for the rest of your life.

    Keep blogging and keep working at it. It isn't always easy, but you're worth the effort!

  5. Yes you sound too tight, I would discuss this with the doctor or whoever does your fills. Also, is there a nutritionist that you can seek out? My doctor included one in the program so maybe yours did too? A band-specific one would be great. She can help you make choices that will get the food down (the soft stuff) that are protein rich. Great job so far, though I'm sorry for what you're going through.